please don't give up

I'm tired of life.
I know I'm more fortunate than a lot of people in the world, but I'm still feeling sick and tired of a life that is not within my control. 

almost a year ago..

the last post dated last year..

was quite some time ago.. hmm hows everyone? hmm im fine, apart from some relationship and work issues..


im still learning to love myself more,  hope everyone does.

Some time before I learn to love again..

h e a r t b r o k e n.

You're the only one to mend it because you're the one who broke it, but I'll never allow that - not anymore.

End of a chapter

Definitely not something to be happy about..

It's hard to believe that he is the one who physically, verbally, and mentally abused me, yet it's the hardest to let go.

To my dear chiwawa..
I'm sorry to let go at this moment, but you've already forced me to my limit. I can no longer be able to take the blow of you throwing your serious drunken fit, totally unable to recall what had happened the next day, and expecting me to just forget about it(again and again). You'll never know how painful it is till you experience the same thing. I hope you'll never have to go through the pain like I did, and the most unbearable pain is when you promised to be the one who's gonna mend back my heart because you wounded it in the first place, but you didn't..
We've been through a lot, been really happy with you, cried together too, do silly things together..etc. Almost inseparable! It's really really painful for me, I know it's painful for you too, but let's just do one last thing together before we finally part our ways.. Brace yourself.

Love,
😢

you said you're looking forward to

me too.

thank you.

i will be waiting

one day, i want you to hold my hand and announce to the all your friends and people who know us, that i'm your love. we will doubled the happiness, and halved the burden.


with all my love.

im there for you just like you here for me

and we'll hold our hands to we tide through this.