When I was a kid, I stole, I lied, I fought, I forged.. Basically doing all those things that will cause the flesh on my buttock to split when Mum punished me by using 3 canes + 2 rulers(those thick kind that tailor uses), making sure that all this 5 land straight and hard on my bare-buttock(yes, without wearing anything). This is how my Mum taught me to be a person with discipline. No matter how poor I am, never steal. If there's something I really wished have, earn it myself. Never lie, because another lie is needed to be told in order to cover up the previous one. Never fight, because Singapore is no longer undeveloped. Never forge, as it's a crime to do so. But as I grow up, I realised that although Mum said that ''The trust between humans need to be proven by action'', but no matter how hard I try, she don't seems to trust me - I never got my second chance. I'm full of hatred and rage.. and sadness. Instead of making things worse, I told myself that no matter how others think of me, even if they are my parents, as long as I didn't do anything wrong, there's nothing to be afraid of. For 10 years, without any hatred, I accept the fact that there's no second chance. People will still have doubt(s) even if they say ''I TRUST YOU'' but the fact is, it's all bullshit. Therefore, from what I learnt from my family, I presumed that everyone only have ONE CHANCE. ''To err, is human.'' It should be changed to ''To err, THERE GOES YOUR ONE AND LAST CHANCE.'' Sorry for being selfish to those whom I used this sentence on but it all depends on how serious the error was and also, it depends on whether one worth another chance.Perhaps in my parents' eyes, I don't worth a cent.
Just like how I was being criticised to the point that I don't worth A SINGLE CENT. At a point, I was being referred as someone who ''enjoys'' bullying other(s). But out of a sudden, this act of referring me as ''bad'' person was being said to be an act of BOOSTING THE PERSONALITY/CHARACTER of the one who got bullied. DUH? So AM I or AM I NOT a bully? It's not up to me to say, right? Pardon me for using ''Birds of the same feathers flock together''. So now can I presume that, in order to achieve the ULTIMATE GOAL, one can do ANYTHING, including doing things which involves an INNOCENT(to the extend that he/she wasn't given the chance to explain) third-party? (:
Do you deserve a second chance?
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Watched -The Day the Earth Stood Still- with KaiLoon and Joe. It's just another ''DON'T HURT THE EARTH!!'' show, just like -The Happening-. With Keanu Reeves starring as the Alien which invaded Earth to save Earth from the people, I just don't feel the WOW in the movie, unlike how he gave me the WOW feelingS when he starred in -Constantine-. So.. We must all love one another including the Earth, if not WE WILL ALL D I E ~!! ANYHOW, so much of coincidences yesterday. First, we saw Ken and his wife(which I seriously can't recall her name =p) after having dessert. Second, my gastric was acting up, and so, we went to the food-court to take care of my gastric, only to realise that Glaudy(ex-Yen colleague) was sitting just right behind our table with her boyfriend. Once again I was asked to work at Charles's place, but this time round was asked by Ken's wife. If not for the VERY inconvenient location.. Well..
It's a wound that never heals.. But I will try.. Let's work hard together, okay?
