i hope to discard and erase all the bad memories i've got, but sadly, it's always easier to say than to do it. my past, not a really bad one is enough to haunt me and tried to put me down in multiple attempts. it's not about how bad the situation was, but how badly affected i am. to be betrayed again and again by your love ones, i chose to pick up the shattered pieces alone, or rather, i have to do it alone at that point of time.
after years, i'm well sheltered and protected. however, the fear is always there.
"when will be the next time history repeats?"
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Cassendra's words stuck in my brain. that question i asked myself before too, and she's right. my surrounding is full of temptations and options, but who will know what will my future be if i chose another route instead of the one i'm sticking onto?
