it was the last second day in school, on wednesday. deadline for alot of assignments, one of which, my group couldnt finish it. alright, i'll confess it here - i borrowed friend's work, and edit from there. back to the main point - we couldnt finish it. to edit from a 61-pages of report is much easier than to start from scratch although the accessibility is so easy nowadays.
i still remember the day when the lecturer issued the project-brief, both of my groupmates were not around. and so, i took the briefs for them and passed it to them few days later. the borrowed-report was emailed to them at least 1-week ago, and they were told by me that they gotta choose the part which they wanna edit, do it as soon as possible, and send back to me. however, they chose to wait till the last minute, using excuse like 'oh, i dont have(lost) the project brief.'. for my usual working habit, i'll rather have late submission(marks will be deducted) than to hand in work which is done for the sake of doing.
so on wednesday, i got a bad start of the day by overslepting. due to the consecutive days of burning midnight oil. reached school 1-hour later than the start of the class. one of my groupmates was sick, the other in school was panicking, expecting me to do the whole sh*tload of work using the 2-hours break in between, by saying 'do lah.. can one.. just do.. then how?'.
STILL HAVE THE CHEEK TO ASK ME HOW?
as i mentioned earlier on that the work was borrowed, so the whole project must be completely edited. but the amount of words edited by the girl who's sick, it's simply just.. BULLSH*T.
main point comes when another girl, keeps on yanking non-stop, telling her grandmother stories when i'm trying my best to keep my cool and calm the groupmate who was present that day. the first time when it happens, i walked away to prevent a 'volcano' eruption. then this groupmate went out of the room, crying(without me knowing). until the other one sick at home told me.
alright, i am a girl. but seriously, i hate to see those very feminine girls who looked so much like as though they need the whole world of protection, ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY CRY. so i feel frustrated, however, kept quiet. at this time, my mind was overflowed with anger. i told myself that whoever says a sh*t about our project, I WILL ASK HIM/HER TO SHUT THE F*CK UP.
(okay, normally i always tell myself to say something straight-forward to someone, but in the end, i didnt.)
when it's time to start another lesson, the girl who tells her grandmother stories started yanking and yanking AGAIN.
'SHUT UP. SHUT UP. OKAY?'
she continues to yank..
'ENOUGH, ALRIGHT? SHUT UP.'
and at this time, a male classmate stepped into our conversation and stopped that girl from yanking non-stop, telling her that i have the rights to make my decision for the group.
HOW TRUE?
after all of my classmates left the classroom, i kept thinking to myself..
so this girl cried, everyone consoled her, i became the villain. why? her tears blinded not her, but everyone else? CAN ANYONE PLEASE SEE WITHIN ME? at the end of the day, i made a decision to apologise to her if i'm too harsh to her. WHY AM I DOING SOMETHING AGAINST MY WILL, JUST TO MAKE SURE WE STILL CAN SMILE TO EACH OTHER?
WHAT'S WRONG WITH THIS LATER BATCH OF STUDENTS? why are they.. so not concerned about the quality of work? instead of the quality and their expectations, they're only concern is to hand-up projects. HANDING FOR THE SAKE OF HANDING, DOING FOR THE SAKE OF DOING. get it?
this is not what i assumed, because even one lecturer said that, and another girl from my batch said that too.
it feels so stressful just to think of it when it comes to 3rd-year. i seriously pray that i'll be in the same class with W, and so, at least we've got some common thinking.
6 more days to assessment. ):
