i got caught.
he asked, 'what else are you hiding from me(us)?'
i shook my head, but deep inside me, i was thinking, 'i got tons of secrets on my hand, but are you ready to know each and everyone of them?'
i didnt say it out, and i cant. knowing that if i say all out, it means the end of this family. part of it, i lacked of courage to do so, afraid of the things that might happened after saying. fear. i'm not strong and courageous enough to do/say things in the way i wanted, since young.
I F*CKING HATE MYSELF FOR BEING SO WEAK.
if only i can throw all the blood-ties aside and be the real me.
