SUDDENLY I FELT LIKE A TOTAL FOOL,
AND I'M SERIOUSLY A FOOL!
...cool down...
One minute ago I'm still wondering IF YOU are feeling alright,
whether YOU are feeling really down judging from YOUR reply,
thinking of ways to cheer YOU up and ALL OF THE THINGS TO MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER AND GET OVER IT.
One minute later,
BB told me that both of you are together again.
It's not that I'm cursing the both of you to break up or as though I am looking forward to the break up,
but i felt like..
AND ONCE AGAIN,
I'M SERIOUSLY SAYING THAT I AM STARTING TO HATE MY CHARACTER,
to care and concern about things happening around me that my friends are involved in.
I AM SUCH A FREAKING BUSYBODY TO MIND SO MUCH ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE'S BUSINESS AND WHEN I AM CRACKING MY BRAIN TO CREATE HAPPINESS AND JOY,
THEY ARE HAVING HAPPINESS AND JOY.
...cool down...
I can only blame myself because it was MY own thinking to revolve around the people,
hoping to create harmonious and joyful mood wherever i go.
SICK OF ALL THIS MAN.
I don't deny the fact that when BB told me that,
I'm feeling so angry/sad/happy CONFUSED that i cried,
and because my Mom is in my room,
I gotta lie down on the bed facing the wall pretending to be asleep,
making sure that I'm breathing with the correct rhythm,
swallowing the excess tears.
THAT IS THE FREAKING CONSEQUENCES I GOTTA BEAR FOR BEING TOO BUSYBODY.
It doesn't really matters because I know that I AM GOOD IN K.O.-ing people.
It's alright if I learnt my lessons through the hard way,
and it's completely fine with me if I ended up with no friends around,
BECAUSE ONLY THOSE WORTH KEEPING WILL BE KEPT.
I WILL..
learn my lesson today;
not be a busybody;
not revolve around people who don't deserves anything from me;
MAKE SURE THAT I WON'T BE A FOOL AGAIN;
WISH GORILLA GOODLUCK.
F*CK!
How would you feel if you're the fool?
-laughs-
I can only blame myself for my stupidity and naive thinking.
'Omanko, why are you so worked up?'
'3 cheers to being stupid, naive and a fool!'
