Thank you.

Tired.. So now I finally realise that our friendship only worth one word.. 'tired'..
Well done. For all the memories.. ONE WORD 'TIRED'.







































Speechless.

Yes, to gain and to lose

Is it true that in order to gain, one must lose something as exchange?

Is it true that when something or someone is/are lost, one will gain in return?

I hoped to beg to differ.

One can gain without losing anything or anyone.

One can lose without gaining anything or anyone in return.

Play punk uh?!

Went to school early in the morning today, feeling excited simply because I'm hoping to have a little fun in school after spending the weekends alone. Ended up being ACCUSED of me giving attitude to the DISCIPLINE-mistress after this lady coming in and look through our stuffs. Why would I say ASSUSED is because I DIDN'T INTEND TO GIVE ANY BAD ATTITUDE AFTERALL, perhaps it's the feeling SHE thought I was giving her, and therefore ASSUMED that I'm doing that. You see, majority of the students in school were afraid of looking at her in the eyes, afraid of bumping into her, afraid of talking to her, basically AFRAID OF HER. What I did was looking straight into her BIG eyes and talk as nicely as possible. So the conversation goes..

Discipline-mistress(DM): Whose work is this? (She was standing at the position, which was blocking the only way that I could get back to my seat)

Me: (Trying to smile a little..) Oh, it's mine. (So, I started to tell her about the stuffs I'm researching on..)

DM: So you think you're able to show me your work if you're standing here and your work is in there? (C'mon! She's blocking my f*cking way without herself knowing it!)

Me: (Trying to smile a little again while squeezing in..)

P.S.: Due to some circumstances, I changed my topic twice, the teacher in-charge knew it well, and therefore I'm not able to carry-on to the next step of the project.

Me: (Looking at the teacher-in-charge.. as he promised to explain to the DM on my behalf)

Teacher-in-charge: Ya, actually I wanna talk to you about this particular student..

DM: I wanna talk to her first.

Me: Ya, so.. I'm doing on this blah, blah, blah..

DM: DIDN'T YOU KNOW THAT YOU'RE NOT ABLE TO DO THIS? DIDN'T YOU KNOW THAT YOU CANNOT COMBINE FOOD AND FASHION TOGETHER? WHAT ARE YOU STUDYING?

Me: Fashion..?

DM: WHO IS CHRISTIAN DIOR?

Me: The founder of Dior..?

DM: WHO IS COCO CHANEL? WHO IS THIS AND WHO IS THAT? YOU ARE STUDYING FASHION YET YOU DON'T KNOW WHO THIS PEOPLE ARE. RE-DO YOUR TOPIC!

Me: Ok.. (Turning my position back to where I'm supposed to sit, tossing my pen on to the table)

DM: YOU DON'T GIVE ME ATTITUDE OK!

Me: Huh?

DM: YOU DON'T SHOW ME YOUR ATTITUDE ALRIGHT?!

Me: Ya.. (Thinking if I can just shut her off by saying 'Ya..')

DM: YOU DON'T TELL ME 'YA'.

Me: (Duh..) I'm not showing you any attitude?!

DM: YOU DON'T SHOW ME YOUR ATTITUDE ALRIGHT?! (Ain't she tired of repeating the same sentence?)

Me: I'm sorry, but I'm not trying to show you any attitude.

DM: ..GIVE ME HER NAME AND CLASS. (She's actually asking the teacher-in-charge to do that)

Me: YA, GO AHEAD.

OH MY GOD! WHERE ON EARTH THIS UNREASONABLE KINDA TEACHER EXIST, CLAIMING TO BE THE DISCIPLINE MISTRESS, YET COULDN'T JUDGE BETWEEN THE REAL ATTITUDE AND THE FEELING SHE ASSUMED OF OTHERS. GO AHEAD AND PENALISE ME, GO AHEAD AND BLACK-LIST ME, IF I DIDN'T DO IT, I'M NOT AFRAID. WITH THE TEACHER-IN-CHARGE AND MY CLASSMATES AS WITNESSES, AND ME JOLLY WELL KNOWING THAT I DIDN'T DO IT, WHO CARES IF A DOG IS BARKING, OR AN OLD HECK IS HAVING SOME KINDA MOOD SWING.

...

Today is the first day..
How long is it going to last..
Escaping isn't the way out..
If you want it this way, then..

Sigh.

Since yesterday, I didn't receive any calls from you. Knowing that you're really excited and really anticipating the overnight-company-chalet, I gave myself an excuse that you're too busy to be in the excited mood, and as well as telling myself that it's only normal for you to be not accepting personal calls. We didn't talked much later that night when I call you, only then to know that you're actually in the midst of a traffic jam. You knew that I went out alone and asked me to be back home early. That night, I didn't receive any further calls from you.
I know that you'll only be home this morning and so, I didn't expect to receive any calls from you. Or actually I did expect your call, telling me that you're on the way home or what-so-ever, but your name didn't appear on my call log afterall. All the way till around 15-mins ago then I finally receive the call from you, asking if I'll be interested to join you and Mork and guys for movie. What you know is that I told you that it seemed to be like an unaffordable movie, but what you're not aware of is that I'm actually not feeling well, and if I don't write it here, you might never know that I wasn't feeling well since yesterday, and it's getting worse today. This is not assumption because I knew you hate it, but, it's already happening isn't it?
Everyone loves to have fun, but when you're having fun, what's going through your brain? I didn't asked to be the one to be on your mind for 24/7, but like what I always say, you wouldn't know how does it feels like to have someone who spends so much time with you, yet don't know as much as the other party does. And something I just feel like laughing is that you always told me that if I'm not going then you won't be going out with the guys although I always tell you to do so without me as we're not Siamese-twins, and today, you did not do as what you said, yet do as what I told you. Should I let out a sigh, or should I laugh at it?
Enjoy yourself.
It hurts.

Shagged.

As usual, I'm shag than ever. Been really busy recently because it's time for submission of all assignments. Due to my laziness and playfulness, I was just idling for the first half of the tutorial week. So the second week, I was rushing the assignments like a mad woman. HAHA! Afterall, I'm back to school for good and today is already the last day of the first week after school re-open, which is a good thing, as well as a bad thing. Good thing is at last, I can have a beauty sleep for at least 4365789236383470-hours, and bad thing is, because my all-time-go-out-kaki(s) is/are away for company-chalet.

Dear BB,
it's alright about the neglecting me part because after all like what you said, there's no happily ever after anyway. (: Muacks~ No la.. Just kidding about that. I'm used to it and understand ya.

Car exhibition 2008

First time stepping into the Expo just to be part of the Car Exhibition for 2008, not enough to WOW me that much, but it just simply shows the passion of Car-lovers to 'dress-up' their beloved car or so-called 'wife'.
Was kinda disappointed with the car-show girls as they're not as HOT and pretty as I thought, in fact, some look worse than my PRIVATE car-show girl who appears in almost all of the photos.

My favourite(I mean.. the designs on the car.. Hehe..)!

This is then my favourite photo.

That's all folks~

)':

A little troubled lately which got me really down, really.

Drifted.

I felt so.

Slipping through..

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

Happy 20th B'day!!

Firstly, I wanna apologise to BB for my absence at her birthday-party last night due to A reason which NEEDS NO INTRODUCTION.

Dear BB,
20-years ago you came out alive after being protected by your Mother's womb for approximately 10-months. 18-years later we got to know each other and hence became good friends(which I thought it won't work out in the beginning). Although I came a little late into part of your life, but I guess that it's about the quality and not the quantity.
When time were tough, I don't have to think whether you'll be there for me because at that very moment, you were right beside me. When I'm laughing out loud, you were there to laugh with me as well as reminding me about face control. For the past lonely years(about.. 6-years), it's really a fortunate thing to have someone like you to be introduced into my life, to share our secret of the secrets. -Giggle-
It's never a rush to be independent because it really takes a loooonnnnnggggg time to 'reduce a metal rod into a thin-fine-needle'. It's a fortune to be taken care by others, and it's a privilege to those who took care of others.
Wonder why I posted the picture above?
Because it served as a reminder to you that I'll try my best not to leave you alone and no matter what happens in future(which can be predicted), you won't be walking alone(look carefully at the picture, I'm right beside you..). -Giggles-

Loves~

(:^^:)

The last time I came here is like 3 or 4 days ago..

There're actually a lot of things happening, but just that I'm plain lazy(I admit it), and also that most of the pictures are with BB(it's only an excuse), so I was thinking if I can only blog about the happenings recently when the pictures arrived in my hands. :P

Anyway, been addicted to prawn-ing recently, and so guys(not only guys, I mean girls as well - everyone practically!), if you wanna look for me and give me a surprise, don't mind going down to the prawn-ing area along Yio Chu Kang Road-Khatib(just opposite to the Yishun Stadium) and look for me. To explain the level of addiction, due to the holiday mood now, my frequency of prawn-ing is like for alternate-days. Yesterday I went prawn-ing, the day before, the day before yesterday, I went prawn-ing as well.
P.S.: There're no error with the 'the day before, the day before yesterday'. I'm just trying to create confusion.

Alright. So this few days despite having fun, I thought about stuffs too. Stuffs like.. my old friends(the chefs), and as well as my new found acquaintances. Sometimes I wonder if I'm neglecting or perhaps slowly losing contact with those, other than the new found acquaintances. It's really hard for me to balance between old and new, plus other factors including my school-work, family, etc.. I'm still learning about balancing things though. So imagine if I'm attached right now, guess I'll be running 'hay-wire'. Of course there're people around me who is/are known to be neglecting their friends because of wanting to be with their boyfriend/girlfriend most of the time, and I seriously HATE that. Unless you're sure that you won't be crawling back to those that you've neglected when the relationship between you and your EX-boyfriend/girlfriend can't work out, if not, PLEASE DO NOT back-faced your friends when you thought that you and your lover are at the center of the Earth.

Okay, just being random.
(:

The meaning of my name

What Ganpeihoonpeggy Means

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are influential and persuasive. You tend to have a lot of power over people. Generally, you use your powers for good. You excel at solving other people's problems. Occasionally, you do get a little selfish and persuade people to do things that are only in your interest. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

孤单的人总说无所谓

我的心真的累了
难道你一点也看不见
解釋再多也不能改变
感情不能靠我一个人挽回
开始学著不要人陪
假裝孤单也是一种美
大街上的情人双双对对
让我看得心愈来愈碎
孤单的人总说无所谓
其实心里一直在下雪
总是希望有个人
能够敝开我心扉
让我在他怀里找到安慰
孤单的人总说无所谓
一直独自整理所有伤悲
掩饰心中的感觉
强忍眼角的泪水
聚聚散散
不愿说后悔
孤单的人总说无所谓
其实心里不停在下雪
只能希望有个人
試著敝开我心扉
让我在他怀里
找到安慰
孤单的人总说无所谓
还是独自整理所有伤悲
掩饰心中的感觉
强忍眼角的泪水
聚聚散散
不愿说后悔
埋藏心中的感觉
擦幹眼角的泪水
聚聚散散
不愿说后悔

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It doesn't really matters afterall right..?

-.-

Sad to say, I didn't recover totally from the previous time when I actually fell sick because the infection came back again. ): Guess I deserve it because it's really hard for me to follow the rules of taking Antibiotics - FINISH THE WHOLE COURSE.

Aura of Darkness

To cut the whole entry short..

Friday.
Had fun, thanks to Botak, BB, SS, G-man, Emily and Mork.

Saturday.
Had fun, thanks to BB and G-man.

Sunday.
Had fun, thanks to BB and G-man.

...

Despite trying to tone-down a little, it still lingers around. Although my good friends returned to the place they belongs to, you still can't escape from all that you'd inflicted on me. Trust the ability I have and had warn you about it before. -Smirk-

Holiday time!!

Wendi is really focusing on her work!
The same goes for FMM1B2-class representative - Michelle.
Time to loosen a little.
The class-flowers.
My delicious dinner.

First time having BA KUT TEH.

-Slurppp-

Yeah~!!

Today is Friday,
last day of school.

From Monday onwards,
it'll be our 2-weeks holiday!

The only sad thing will be that,
I'll be going back to school for a few of the days to finish up ALL the assignments.
(:

P.S. : (pictures will be uploaded as soon as I'm using my computer. heheeeeee..)

In the process..

YO PEOPLE~

Been gone for quite a number of days due to the stupid virus-infection which CAUSES my throat area to be so swollen that my nose and ears ARE blocked most of the time. IT IS still blocking now. The pain at my throat area is better than before, no more fever like the previous days. So ya, I think I'm already in the process of recovering.

Basically, wasted my weekends sleeping almost to 20-hours/day due to the on and off fever. Given medical-certificate(MC) for Monday, skipped school today because I just still don't feel too good to go back to school. (:

After around 2-months of school, I see the real character of a lot of my classmates. I don't say that I'm THAT perfect, but we do gotta admit that there are some character that we human really loathe. Those who are younger than me, I don't really blame them because I'll actually give the excuse of them being young and immature, therefore they'll somehow be forgiven. BUT, as someone who is older than me should know what should be said and what should not, RIGHT?

I mean for someone younger than me who CLAIMED THAT I JUST SO PURPOSELY LIKE TO SCOLD HIM, I'll just simply kick your *ss and laugh because to me, YOU ARE JUST A LITTLE BOY who don't know 'how high is the sky, how thick is the ground - 不知天高地厚'. It's alright with me because I'm trying to mean good and if it's not understood and appreciated despite being explained, then well, I CAN ALWAYS SAVE MY BREATH.

And likewise, for someone who is few years older than me who don't have a single clue about PEOPLE MANAGEMENT and STRESS MANAGEMENT, or perhaps just one of it, if I were you, I'm better off DEAD. You just simply scream at anyone who just happened to consult you when you're stressed. HELLO, YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE LEH!
P.S. : (Shall not elaborate further just in case my blood boils and my fever comes back. CHOY!)

It's alright with how others viewed me because at the end of the day, if I think that what they commented about me is/are reasonable, I MIGHT consider changing a little. BUT if you're not any better than me, forget it.

2-weeks holiday is coming soon, finish my projects well then I'll be able to have fun!

(EH BOY, IF YOU ARE ASKING FOR HELP, ASK NICELY. I DON'T OWE IT TO YOU.)