Since yesterday, I didn't receive any calls from you. Knowing that you're really excited and really anticipating the overnight-company-chalet, I gave myself an excuse that you're too busy to be in the excited mood, and as well as telling myself that it's only normal for you to be not accepting personal calls. We didn't talked much later that night when I call you, only then to know that you're actually in the midst of a traffic jam. You knew that I went out alone and asked me to be back home early. That night, I didn't receive any further calls from you.
I know that you'll only be home this morning and so, I didn't expect to receive any calls from you. Or actually I did expect your call, telling me that you're on the way home or what-so-ever, but your name didn't appear on my call log afterall. All the way till around 15-mins ago then I finally receive the call from you, asking if I'll be interested to join you and Mork and guys for movie. What you know is that I told you that it seemed to be like an unaffordable movie, but what you're not aware of is that I'm actually not feeling well, and if I don't write it here, you might never know that I wasn't feeling well since yesterday, and it's getting worse today. This is not assumption because I knew you hate it, but, it's already happening isn't it?
Everyone loves to have fun, but when you're having fun, what's going through your brain? I didn't asked to be the one to be on your mind for 24/7, but like what I always say, you wouldn't know how does it feels like to have someone who spends so much time with you, yet don't know as much as the other party does. And something I just feel like laughing is that you always told me that if I'm not going then you won't be going out with the guys although I always tell you to do so without me as we're not Siamese-twins, and today, you did not do as what you said, yet do as what I told you. Should I let out a sigh, or should I laugh at it?
Enjoy yourself.
It hurts.
