I'm down with high fever,
feeling lethargic and cold.
Can't concentrate on my work while waiting for BB to return home.
):
It's not a bad thing though,
it's been ages since I last fell sick seriously.
I need a re-build of immune-system!
(:
Brrrrr...
30 August 2008
27 August 2008
BUSY!!!
Been really busy lately which resulted in me burning midnight-oil almost every night as well as going back to school even on days which I do not need to be in school for lessons.
Yesterday I was so stressed that tears flowed freely when the teacher is talking to me. Well, my emotions just took over.
But I'm already on the right track I guess.
(:
Don't worry!
Yesterday I was so stressed that tears flowed freely when the teacher is talking to me. Well, my emotions just took over.
But I'm already on the right track I guess.
(:
Don't worry!
25 August 2008
)':
I'm afraid that I might break down at any point.
Worked on the project till wee-hour,
not appreciated AT ALL.
Gotta burn midnight-oil again tonight.
):
I need more time.
I need money.
I need you.
Worked on the project till wee-hour,
not appreciated AT ALL.
Gotta burn midnight-oil again tonight.
):
I need more time.
I need money.
I need you.
24 August 2008
Searching for my Identity
Went out with BB, Mork and guys to Vivocity yesterday to catch the recent horror movie - 4bia.
The movie actually consists of 4 short-stories. The first story is about the ex-boyfriend of the girl who came back and so-called seek for 'revenge' after he committed suicide by rushing against the on-coming car because she actually told him that she'd already fall for another guy and broke off their relationship. Imagine the person who's texting the girl all along is the spirit of the guy whose parents actually buried him together with a cell-phone just in case that he is lonely. IMAGINE again, when the girl realised something eerie is going on, the guy text-ed her 'I am in-front of your building.', followed by 'I'm on my way up.'. The tension is there when we're watching it especially among the 8 of us, AT LEAST 5 of them are afraid. LOL! Anyway, the sound effect of the show is so powerful that most of the audiences jumped out of their seats because of it instead of the graphic. Alright, the title of the second story is 'Tit-for-tat'. It's all about a bunch of bullies messing with the wrong person who meddles with black-magic. One by one, they died in horrific-accidents, except the last girl who dug out her own eyes.. Getting more interesting? The third story is somehow not too scary, with a little jokes, and also with a sad ending. I like the last story the most(perhaps it explains the meaning of saving the best for the last). Know what? The best thing you can do in life is to IMAGINE, so imagine that you're the air-stewardess and have to attend to ONLY ONE passenger in the whole aeroplane. Relax isn't it? BUT! The ONLY ONE passenger is someone you're actually guilty of being the mistress of her husband, and worst, she's no longer breathing.. It's really scary when hallucinations started setting in and drive you to the edge of insanity. It's really horrible when this hallucinations are beyond explanations.. Well, for those who wanted a real good scare, go ahead and FOCUS well on the movie. Enjoy!
Proceeded to have singing session as it was Edwin's birthday after 12a.m. which is today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~
Sang and drank all the way till the wee hours, with G-man driving us home.
Home sweet home at 6a.m.
I jolly well knew that I'll get whole-load of @#$%^&* from Mom and sure enough, the moment I open up my lunch-box..
Mom: What time you reached home yesterday?
Me: This morning.
Mom: You really like to do this purposely right?
Me: ..(duh)
Mom: Just because I scolded you yesterday(the previous day) means that you can go out till so late on purpose? Blah blah blah..
I know I shouldn't have my single hand-phone bill of $187.
I know I shouldn't go out without letting her know about it and causing her to buy an extra portion of food for dinner.
I know it's my responsibility to my actions.
I KNOW IT WELL AND CLEAR.
BUT DON'T ASSUMED THAT YOU KNOW ME WELL ENOUGH TO ASSUME WHAT I'M THINKING JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE MY MOTHER.
Just like last time, I just kept quiet while she carry-on with her ASSUMPTION because I know it well enough that it's useless for me to say ANYTHING because IT IS MY FAULT to be born with such character which builds me up; IT IS ALL MY FAULT to be born in this family. What I was really unhappy about is when SHE said that I NEVER CONTRIBUTE A SINGLE CENT TO THE FAMILY when I was working. Perhaps SHE should try to recall that I even gave money to my God-father and Brother. Yes, I admit that was only once BUT ALL THIS YEARS I DIDN'T TAKE A F*CKING CENT FROM THE FAMILY. Talk about YOUR DEAR SON then. With or without work, I'll always be hearing that he's owing you money. WHAT'S THAT MAN?
It breaks my heart to see you crying whenever you're scolding me, but what about me? I GOT NO SAY IN THIS F*CKING FAMILY, FIGHTING FOR WHAT I DIDN'T DO WILL ONLY RESULTED IN ME BEING LOOKED UPON AS SOMEONE WHO HAVE TONS OF EXCUSES AND NO RESPONSIBILITY. CRYING WILL ONLY BEING ASKED TO SAVE THE CROCODILE TEARS. WHAT IS THIS MAN? With a Mom who thinks that ONLY SHE IS RIGHT; with a Brother whose brain is filled with ARROGANCE and also thinks that ONLY HE IS RIGHT; with a Dad who kept quiet all day long and only raises his voice when everyone is raising their voice, WHO AM I?
It's alright if NO ONE understands me, but all I asked for is just simply a little trust. Isn't it time for me to deserve something I worked hard for over the years?
Drive me to the edge and I'll retaliate; hold me too tight and I'll fly off without turning back.
Sigh.
我的心好累..
The movie actually consists of 4 short-stories. The first story is about the ex-boyfriend of the girl who came back and so-called seek for 'revenge' after he committed suicide by rushing against the on-coming car because she actually told him that she'd already fall for another guy and broke off their relationship. Imagine the person who's texting the girl all along is the spirit of the guy whose parents actually buried him together with a cell-phone just in case that he is lonely. IMAGINE again, when the girl realised something eerie is going on, the guy text-ed her 'I am in-front of your building.', followed by 'I'm on my way up.'. The tension is there when we're watching it especially among the 8 of us, AT LEAST 5 of them are afraid. LOL! Anyway, the sound effect of the show is so powerful that most of the audiences jumped out of their seats because of it instead of the graphic. Alright, the title of the second story is 'Tit-for-tat'. It's all about a bunch of bullies messing with the wrong person who meddles with black-magic. One by one, they died in horrific-accidents, except the last girl who dug out her own eyes.. Getting more interesting? The third story is somehow not too scary, with a little jokes, and also with a sad ending. I like the last story the most(perhaps it explains the meaning of saving the best for the last). Know what? The best thing you can do in life is to IMAGINE, so imagine that you're the air-stewardess and have to attend to ONLY ONE passenger in the whole aeroplane. Relax isn't it? BUT! The ONLY ONE passenger is someone you're actually guilty of being the mistress of her husband, and worst, she's no longer breathing.. It's really scary when hallucinations started setting in and drive you to the edge of insanity. It's really horrible when this hallucinations are beyond explanations.. Well, for those who wanted a real good scare, go ahead and FOCUS well on the movie. Enjoy!
Proceeded to have singing session as it was Edwin's birthday after 12a.m. which is today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~
Sang and drank all the way till the wee hours, with G-man driving us home.
Home sweet home at 6a.m.
I jolly well knew that I'll get whole-load of @#$%^&* from Mom and sure enough, the moment I open up my lunch-box..
Mom: What time you reached home yesterday?
Me: This morning.
Mom: You really like to do this purposely right?
Me: ..(duh)
Mom: Just because I scolded you yesterday(the previous day) means that you can go out till so late on purpose? Blah blah blah..
I know I shouldn't have my single hand-phone bill of $187.
I know I shouldn't go out without letting her know about it and causing her to buy an extra portion of food for dinner.
I know it's my responsibility to my actions.
I KNOW IT WELL AND CLEAR.
BUT DON'T ASSUMED THAT YOU KNOW ME WELL ENOUGH TO ASSUME WHAT I'M THINKING JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE MY MOTHER.
Just like last time, I just kept quiet while she carry-on with her ASSUMPTION because I know it well enough that it's useless for me to say ANYTHING because IT IS MY FAULT to be born with such character which builds me up; IT IS ALL MY FAULT to be born in this family. What I was really unhappy about is when SHE said that I NEVER CONTRIBUTE A SINGLE CENT TO THE FAMILY when I was working. Perhaps SHE should try to recall that I even gave money to my God-father and Brother. Yes, I admit that was only once BUT ALL THIS YEARS I DIDN'T TAKE A F*CKING CENT FROM THE FAMILY. Talk about YOUR DEAR SON then. With or without work, I'll always be hearing that he's owing you money. WHAT'S THAT MAN?
It breaks my heart to see you crying whenever you're scolding me, but what about me? I GOT NO SAY IN THIS F*CKING FAMILY, FIGHTING FOR WHAT I DIDN'T DO WILL ONLY RESULTED IN ME BEING LOOKED UPON AS SOMEONE WHO HAVE TONS OF EXCUSES AND NO RESPONSIBILITY. CRYING WILL ONLY BEING ASKED TO SAVE THE CROCODILE TEARS. WHAT IS THIS MAN? With a Mom who thinks that ONLY SHE IS RIGHT; with a Brother whose brain is filled with ARROGANCE and also thinks that ONLY HE IS RIGHT; with a Dad who kept quiet all day long and only raises his voice when everyone is raising their voice, WHO AM I?
It's alright if NO ONE understands me, but all I asked for is just simply a little trust. Isn't it time for me to deserve something I worked hard for over the years?
Drive me to the edge and I'll retaliate; hold me too tight and I'll fly off without turning back.
Sigh.
我的心好累..
23 August 2008
Just for my BF
9-years ago..
It was my first day for tuition at a particular lady's house, thinking if I would be able to make any new friends there. I was made seated diagonally-opposite to this little girl with a definite-unfriendly face and was in fact, kinda intimidating.
It all started out with us exchanging sweets around(remember the egg-shaped sweets that we used to buy it at the shop located at the void-deck of the tuition place? I still love the taste of it!), then hanging out in school together, being in the same class for 1-year and the alternate-year. To think back about the deeds we did back then, although I can't remember all of them, but whenever I thought of us keeping MR.ONG's liquid-paper as our own possession, I just can't help but to laugh out LOUD!
Sad to say, we lose contact after graduating from Primary-school..
..but we somehow managed to contact each other back after a few years, and therefore accumulate up to a 9-years friendship.
It's not about the quantity(no. of years), but it's the quality(sincerity) that counts.
Although we don't meet up as often as frequent as 9-years ago(haha!), just wanna let you know that I'M ALWAYS AROUND.
It was my first day for tuition at a particular lady's house, thinking if I would be able to make any new friends there. I was made seated diagonally-opposite to this little girl with a definite-unfriendly face and was in fact, kinda intimidating.
It all started out with us exchanging sweets around(remember the egg-shaped sweets that we used to buy it at the shop located at the void-deck of the tuition place? I still love the taste of it!), then hanging out in school together, being in the same class for 1-year and the alternate-year. To think back about the deeds we did back then, although I can't remember all of them, but whenever I thought of us keeping MR.ONG's liquid-paper as our own possession, I just can't help but to laugh out LOUD!
Sad to say, we lose contact after graduating from Primary-school..
..but we somehow managed to contact each other back after a few years, and therefore accumulate up to a 9-years friendship.
It's not about the quantity(no. of years), but it's the quality(sincerity) that counts.
Although we don't meet up as often as frequent as 9-years ago(haha!), just wanna let you know that I'M ALWAYS AROUND.
Good things are meant to be kept;
good memories are meant to be remembered;
good friend(s) are meant to be treasured.
HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY!!
You're truly loved by me. (:
21 August 2008
Potential then Kinetic
For TWICE!!
One of the teachers who took over my art lesson for a short period of time laughed at the topic that I chose for my Secondary-end-year-product. [Angry!!]
TODAY my teacher told me TRY NOT TO combine FOOD and FASHION together.
For TWICE!!
I don't understand the reason W-H-Y these O.F. just can't be more flexible. IF I can DO IT, why not? I knew what I'm capable of. I'll just admit what I can't do, and will just prove to others with those things that I can, yet now, I'm being so-called 'forced' to give up on something that I can actually prove to whoever - WHOEVER. Duh!
I WILL PROVE.
Just wait and see.
One of the teachers who took over my art lesson for a short period of time laughed at the topic that I chose for my Secondary-end-year-product. [Angry!!]
TODAY my teacher told me TRY NOT TO combine FOOD and FASHION together.
For TWICE!!
I don't understand the reason W-H-Y these O.F. just can't be more flexible. IF I can DO IT, why not? I knew what I'm capable of. I'll just admit what I can't do, and will just prove to others with those things that I can, yet now, I'm being so-called 'forced' to give up on something that I can actually prove to whoever - WHOEVER. Duh!
I WILL PROVE.
Just wait and see.
20 August 2008
Never be retrieved
People do gain and lose things, and most of the time they got the choice of cherishing their 'possession(s)' in order not to lose it, or work hard for what they want in order to gain it in return.
The sad thing is, most people think that what-ever they have/had is/are something pre-destinated or so-called 'fated'. What they might not know is that sometimes in life(or should I say most of the time in life), we fight for our own destiny; we create our own history; we create our own future.
...
If what you did yesterday is something you did 6-months ago, perhaps.. Things changed.. People do change.. I changed.. It's never the same anymore, we won't be the same anymore.. Some things, once lost, wouldn't be retrieved.. Sorry, but I got no problem with the people around me now, I gave them as much love as what I'd once given you. Like I always say, I wouldn't want to be back with anyone who once broke my heart so badly.. and I'll definitely live a better life.
No matter how my heart try to defy my decision, I wouldn't change it.
Now then I realise that all along I'm just trying to escape..
It's a pain to face it..
Someone please ease my pain and bring me peace..
The sad thing is, most people think that what-ever they have/had is/are something pre-destinated or so-called 'fated'. What they might not know is that sometimes in life(or should I say most of the time in life), we fight for our own destiny; we create our own history; we create our own future.
...
If what you did yesterday is something you did 6-months ago, perhaps.. Things changed.. People do change.. I changed.. It's never the same anymore, we won't be the same anymore.. Some things, once lost, wouldn't be retrieved.. Sorry, but I got no problem with the people around me now, I gave them as much love as what I'd once given you. Like I always say, I wouldn't want to be back with anyone who once broke my heart so badly.. and I'll definitely live a better life.
No matter how my heart try to defy my decision, I wouldn't change it.
Now then I realise that all along I'm just trying to escape..
It's a pain to face it..
Someone please ease my pain and bring me peace..
18 August 2008
You are never alone
I screwed my own life too.
Ain't too sad nor worried about it actually because I always believe that there'll be a rainbow after every storm.
Therefore, I'll Gambate Ne!
想告诉让我领悟到许多宝贵人生道理的‘干爸爸’：
船到桥头自然直。
雨过了，
天也会慢慢晴。
一切的不愉快就抛在脑后吧，
美好回忆就收藏起来，
当心情不好时或遇到挫折时就拿出来翻看，
当作是一种精神上的鼓励。
Anata gambate ne!
有什么理想就去追随吧，
让你自己展翅高飞地在天上翱翔。
人不为己，天诛地灭。
保重。
Ain't too sad nor worried about it actually because I always believe that there'll be a rainbow after every storm.
Therefore, I'll Gambate Ne!
想告诉让我领悟到许多宝贵人生道理的‘干爸爸’：
船到桥头自然直。
雨过了，
天也会慢慢晴。
一切的不愉快就抛在脑后吧，
美好回忆就收藏起来，
当心情不好时或遇到挫折时就拿出来翻看，
当作是一种精神上的鼓励。
Anata gambate ne!
有什么理想就去追随吧，
让你自己展翅高飞地在天上翱翔。
人不为己，天诛地灭。
保重。
17 August 2008
Friend(s)
How many friend(s) you have ,
who actually know what you're going to do and think without having to lift a finger?
How many acquaintances who came across your life, shared your happiness and left?
How many stranger(s) actually lend you a helping hand when you need a little help at an unknown place?
Shouldn't you feel really fortunate when you have AT LEAST a friend who knows what you're thinking and going to do without you having to lift a finger?
Shouldn't you feel really fortunate to have those people to come into your life and double-up your happiness although they don't really unload half of your sadness?
Shouldn't you feel really fortunate to feel really fortunate to have a stranger directing you to your destination, as easy as that?
Some people don't cherish what they have until they lose it.
Some people don't cherish what they have even when they lost it.
The most pathetic kinda person is those who knows/understands about others/bestfriend/boyfriend/girlfriend,
but in return,
no one understands them.
THINK.
Are you really fortunate or pathetic?
who actually know what you're going to do and think without having to lift a finger?
How many acquaintances who came across your life, shared your happiness and left?
How many stranger(s) actually lend you a helping hand when you need a little help at an unknown place?
Shouldn't you feel really fortunate when you have AT LEAST a friend who knows what you're thinking and going to do without you having to lift a finger?
Shouldn't you feel really fortunate to have those people to come into your life and double-up your happiness although they don't really unload half of your sadness?
Shouldn't you feel really fortunate to feel really fortunate to have a stranger directing you to your destination, as easy as that?
Some people don't cherish what they have until they lose it.
Some people don't cherish what they have even when they lost it.
The most pathetic kinda person is those who knows/understands about others/bestfriend/boyfriend/girlfriend,
but in return,
no one understands them.
THINK.
Are you really fortunate or pathetic?
暧昧
暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还是你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你
暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你
写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽停在这里
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景
到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还是你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你
暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气
暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你
写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽停在这里
HAIR
PEOPLE, STOP ASKING ME IF I PERMED MY HAIR.
IT'S NATURAL-CURL.
LOL.
It just get too frustrated answering the same old question again and again.
IT'S NATURAL-CURL.
LOL.
It just get too frustrated answering the same old question again and again.
16 August 2008
^^''
I love Unagi!-Slurp~-
BB commented on this photo that it looks like some kinda Eerie-Japanese-Doll, but I like it too!
This got nothing to do with the 2 previous photos although all this photos were taken quite some time ago. It's just a random picture taken by BB while we're waiting for Taxi at her block destinating at East-Coast-Park.
...
I'm feeling better compared to the afternoon when my anger took over me. Took a nap in the afternoon when I got no mood to do anything, only to be woken up by the excruciating pain, thanks to my Gastric, and all the way up to my chest. Ouch! Luckily, I got this natural-healing ability that don't really have to rely on medication for all this pain and discomfort.
Skipped roller-blading today and was feeling kinda disappointed because I wanted so much to get myself outta my house for some fresh-air at East-Coast, but due to financial-tightness, I gotta give up the idea of burdening my purse. Don't worry about that, I'll soon be able to have a pair of brand-new roller-blade under MY OWN possession. I can ALWAYS give up on branded stuffs for the thing(s) I love unlike those who gave up on their love ones in order to have their materialistic-desire fulfilled.
Nothing in my mind to blog about right now, perhaps/hopefully there'll be more interesting event coming up to create an adrenaline-rush in me in-order to brighten up my days.
Shagged.
I typed A LOT and back-spaced them ALL in order to save trouble for myself.
Pissed.
Shagged.
Sorry guys,
just bear with me and finish the assignments for this semester and you'll be free to go to any other groups you like.
(P.S.: Not in the mood to type anything right now. Will be updating soon..)
Pissed.
Shagged.
Sorry guys,
just bear with me and finish the assignments for this semester and you'll be free to go to any other groups you like.
(P.S.: Not in the mood to type anything right now. Will be updating soon..)
Pictures don't talk, I do.
Sorry if this picture of mine frightens you because it gave me creeps actually.LOL.
I posted it because I find it quite-alike with the illustrated-octopus.
My classmate-Sean/DaHai/Fynn and me. 
Look! We got the same wrist-band.
It's me trying out the high-waist-long-pants.
How is it?
Lesson can be really bored at times..
15 August 2008
14 August 2008
Me and my guardian-angels
Guys,
I just came back from East-Coast-Park,
and I'm SO tired.
Haha!
BB told me something which I just got the urge to blog about it.
This issue pissed her a little but I guess it's worthless to bother this kinda people.
So the story started off with a 'good' colleague of hers,
fancy 'indirectly' hurling her name(s) like 'bui-eh' which is also-known-as 'fatty'.
I mean it's nothing wrong to say WHATEVER you like because at the end of the day,
it's your mouth and if you're not afraid of having a rotten mouth,
go ahead.
It's really NOTHING WRONG ya,
but one thing you must keep it in mind is that before you say anything(criticise) about others which will somehow 'hurt' him/her,
you MUST be sure that you'll be able to accept the same 'criticism' back to you.
HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF SOMEONE ELSES LAUGHED/CRITICISED ABOUT YOUR IMPERFECTION(S)?
Unless you are totally-PERFECT or you're able to laugh at your OWN imperfection(s),
if not,
just kinda SHUT YOUR PIE-HOLE b*tch.
...
Oh ya,
and I heard that YOU are back to work with your eyes unhealed.
Perhaps you might forgot what your Mum(deceased) told your ex-boyfriend when she appeared in his dreams.
YOU NEVER LEARN.
Bear this in mind,
what you're suffering now is just a little present from me,
for what you've done.
MAY GOD WILL BE ABLE TO BLESS YOU TILL THE DAY I DIE.
...
Oyasumi~
I just came back from East-Coast-Park,
and I'm SO tired.
Haha!
BB told me something which I just got the urge to blog about it.
This issue pissed her a little but I guess it's worthless to bother this kinda people.
So the story started off with a 'good' colleague of hers,
fancy 'indirectly' hurling her name(s) like 'bui-eh' which is also-known-as 'fatty'.
I mean it's nothing wrong to say WHATEVER you like because at the end of the day,
it's your mouth and if you're not afraid of having a rotten mouth,
go ahead.
It's really NOTHING WRONG ya,
but one thing you must keep it in mind is that before you say anything(criticise) about others which will somehow 'hurt' him/her,
you MUST be sure that you'll be able to accept the same 'criticism' back to you.
HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF SOMEONE ELSES LAUGHED/CRITICISED ABOUT YOUR IMPERFECTION(S)?
Unless you are totally-PERFECT or you're able to laugh at your OWN imperfection(s),
if not,
just kinda SHUT YOUR PIE-HOLE b*tch.
...
Oh ya,
and I heard that YOU are back to work with your eyes unhealed.
Perhaps you might forgot what your Mum(deceased) told your ex-boyfriend when she appeared in his dreams.
YOU NEVER LEARN.
Bear this in mind,
what you're suffering now is just a little present from me,
for what you've done.
MAY GOD WILL BE ABLE TO BLESS YOU TILL THE DAY I DIE.
...
Oyasumi~
12 August 2008
To cry with no tears
Isn't it great to have a boyfriend who earns about 7-8k or even more per-month?
Compared to the lousy ex-boyfriend(s) you had,
who can only afford to get you the pathetic bouquet of flowers and that lousy DS-lite you ONCE enjoyed playing SO much.
The current not only can satisfy your needs,
but also your BIG appetite of buying branded stuffs.
Oh!
Isn't it really nice to have an ATM around?
I guess I'd already forgot that your boyfriend's surname is spelled as A-T-M.
DUH
...
Don't assumed that I still got feelings for you.
It took me SO long to buck up the courage to break-up with you;
it took me SO long to accept the fact that I'm no longer in any close-relationship with you;
it took me SO long to numb myself so that I won't be spending most of my sleeping-time sobbing.
And all the above took away the whole of 6-months.
WHOLE FREAKING 6-MONTHS!
Perhaps you might not know that I AM a very clear-cut kinda person.
When I mentioned 'BREAK-UP',
it's meant to be having a line drawn across in between us almost immediately.
It doesn't matters if I got a broken-heart because at the end of the day,
my heart NEVER mends back ever since 6-months ago.
It just started with a small little crack..
and this little crack caused what am I today,
who shudders upon hearing the word 'love';
who failed to drop a single tear even when my heart aches-up at time.
I wouldn't want to be together back with someone who broke my heart so badly..
)':
Compared to the lousy ex-boyfriend(s) you had,
who can only afford to get you the pathetic bouquet of flowers and that lousy DS-lite you ONCE enjoyed playing SO much.
The current not only can satisfy your needs,
but also your BIG appetite of buying branded stuffs.
Oh!
Isn't it really nice to have an ATM around?
I guess I'd already forgot that your boyfriend's surname is spelled as A-T-M.
DUH
...
Don't assumed that I still got feelings for you.
It took me SO long to buck up the courage to break-up with you;
it took me SO long to accept the fact that I'm no longer in any close-relationship with you;
it took me SO long to numb myself so that I won't be spending most of my sleeping-time sobbing.
And all the above took away the whole of 6-months.
WHOLE FREAKING 6-MONTHS!
Perhaps you might not know that I AM a very clear-cut kinda person.
When I mentioned 'BREAK-UP',
it's meant to be having a line drawn across in between us almost immediately.
It doesn't matters if I got a broken-heart because at the end of the day,
my heart NEVER mends back ever since 6-months ago.
It just started with a small little crack..
and this little crack caused what am I today,
who shudders upon hearing the word 'love';
who failed to drop a single tear even when my heart aches-up at time.
I wouldn't want to be together back with someone who broke my heart so badly..
)':
11 August 2008
Life.
Ever felt as though the whole world is turning against you and nothing is right?
I AM so sure that everyone will have this kinda thinking at least once a lifetime,
but perhaps for those who thought of ending their life in order to end all this so-called 'sufferings' might not know HOW FORTUNATE THEY ARE compared to others.
Being fortunate is not about having SO MUCH money to spend on shopping-spree.
Being REALLY FORTUNATE is about knowing that whenever you feel tired outside,
there's always a 'shelter' named HOME,
waiting for you to rest and relax,
always ready to give you the warmth and comfort.
TAKE A LOOK at those elderly who spent their time loitering on the street,
staring aimlessly across the traffic.
TAKE A LOOK at those children in the orphanage who will NEVER know truly what a REAL HOME is like.
TAKE A LOOK AT YOURSELF AGAIN.
Easy ways of committing suicide:
-downing a large number of medicine;
-jumping down from 6739020385658292-storey;
-laying across the choo-choo-train-track;
-jumping down the MRT-railway-track with the on-coming train(popular!);
-blah blah blah..
DON'T BE MISTAKEN!
I'M NOT TRYING TO ENCOURAGE ANYONE TO END THEIR LIFE IN ANY OF THE WAYS MENTIONED ABOVE.
But what I'm trying to say is that one should LEARN to cherish their life no matter how much difficulties they met and how much obstacles they faced.
DOWNING MEDICINE - Do you know the consequences if you failed to die? Do you know that your kidney will actually failed you and because the dosage of medicine is far too much, your liver will actually harden and worse, you might need a liver transplant. WORST, the liver transplanted MIGHT/MIGHT NOT suit you.
JUMPING DOWN FROM 6739020385658292-STOREY - Think of those who will be cleaning up your GUTS and BRAIN and BLOOD which splatters ALL OVER the place. What if you drop on-top of another person before having your limbs flying EVERYWHERE? Isn't it cruel to KILL another innocent-party who is unwilling to die?
SOMETHING TO DO WITH TRAINS - Imagine the train-officer gotta do a SUDDEN-JAM-BRAKE, causing UNNECESSARY injuries to the passengers who don't have a seat and are not holding on to anything for support. What's worse is when those woman with pregnancy are injured, clinging on to their life dearly in order to protect the unborn.
There ARE MILLIONS or even BILLIONS or even ZILLIONS of people who suffered mentally and physically MUCH MORE than you do.
Do they choose the path like you do?
NO, THEY DON'T!
Instead,
what they did was telling themselves to be stronger than ever in order to overcome whatever is/are against them.
Acknowledge the fact that you are SO MUCH fortunate and should not be thinking about ending things in this way.
YES, YOU ARE FORTUNATE.
SACRIFICIAL is something OH-SO-HOLY for Christians.
BUT,
sacrificing for SOMEONE who don't love you as much as you do is something NOT worthy to do at all.
THINK about those who loves you MORE than she does.
Is it worth it to HURT those who loves you?
YOU YOURSELF should know better than anyone how it feels to be hurt,
so is it FAIR for those who loves you to be hurt when you are hurt?
Lastly,
if you got the courage to do anything foolish,
why not you transform the ENERGY OF DEVASTATION to a kinda MOTIVATION in life?
I AM so sure that everyone will have this kinda thinking at least once a lifetime,
but perhaps for those who thought of ending their life in order to end all this so-called 'sufferings' might not know HOW FORTUNATE THEY ARE compared to others.
Being fortunate is not about having SO MUCH money to spend on shopping-spree.
Being REALLY FORTUNATE is about knowing that whenever you feel tired outside,
there's always a 'shelter' named HOME,
waiting for you to rest and relax,
always ready to give you the warmth and comfort.
TAKE A LOOK at those elderly who spent their time loitering on the street,
staring aimlessly across the traffic.
TAKE A LOOK at those children in the orphanage who will NEVER know truly what a REAL HOME is like.
TAKE A LOOK AT YOURSELF AGAIN.
Easy ways of committing suicide:
-downing a large number of medicine;
-jumping down from 6739020385658292-storey;
-laying across the choo-choo-train-track;
-jumping down the MRT-railway-track with the on-coming train(popular!);
-blah blah blah..
DON'T BE MISTAKEN!
I'M NOT TRYING TO ENCOURAGE ANYONE TO END THEIR LIFE IN ANY OF THE WAYS MENTIONED ABOVE.
But what I'm trying to say is that one should LEARN to cherish their life no matter how much difficulties they met and how much obstacles they faced.
DOWNING MEDICINE - Do you know the consequences if you failed to die? Do you know that your kidney will actually failed you and because the dosage of medicine is far too much, your liver will actually harden and worse, you might need a liver transplant. WORST, the liver transplanted MIGHT/MIGHT NOT suit you.
JUMPING DOWN FROM 6739020385658292-STOREY - Think of those who will be cleaning up your GUTS and BRAIN and BLOOD which splatters ALL OVER the place. What if you drop on-top of another person before having your limbs flying EVERYWHERE? Isn't it cruel to KILL another innocent-party who is unwilling to die?
SOMETHING TO DO WITH TRAINS - Imagine the train-officer gotta do a SUDDEN-JAM-BRAKE, causing UNNECESSARY injuries to the passengers who don't have a seat and are not holding on to anything for support. What's worse is when those woman with pregnancy are injured, clinging on to their life dearly in order to protect the unborn.
There ARE MILLIONS or even BILLIONS or even ZILLIONS of people who suffered mentally and physically MUCH MORE than you do.
Do they choose the path like you do?
NO, THEY DON'T!
Instead,
what they did was telling themselves to be stronger than ever in order to overcome whatever is/are against them.
Acknowledge the fact that you are SO MUCH fortunate and should not be thinking about ending things in this way.
YES, YOU ARE FORTUNATE.
SACRIFICIAL is something OH-SO-HOLY for Christians.
BUT,
sacrificing for SOMEONE who don't love you as much as you do is something NOT worthy to do at all.
THINK about those who loves you MORE than she does.
Is it worth it to HURT those who loves you?
YOU YOURSELF should know better than anyone how it feels to be hurt,
so is it FAIR for those who loves you to be hurt when you are hurt?
Lastly,
if you got the courage to do anything foolish,
why not you transform the ENERGY OF DEVASTATION to a kinda MOTIVATION in life?
09 August 2008
Tired.
Just back from cycling,
followed by steamboat with BB, Mork and guys.
Today is a tiring day because was back home late last night and waking up early this morning.
Yesterday.
Met up with BB and E. at their workplace because I ended school earlier than them ending their work,
so travelling by MRT all the way from Bugis till Commonwealth is not a problem.
We then decided to go to Westmall to have our dinner.
The night was spent at a nice place to chill-out locating at somewhere near Jurong-East,
with E.'s ex-boyfriend and her friend.
But the night ended with me nearly fainted in the toilet because of sudden low-blood-pressure which only happens during a 'certain period' of every month.
I wasn't feeling too well all of a sudden,
so I proceeded to the toilet hopefully to get better after breathing in the germs in the toilet.
But I started having serious breaking out of cold sweats which causes my dress to be slightly-wet,
droplets of sweats which tickled down my face,
and visible-tiny-weeny-droplets of sweat/water/whatever appearing on my hands and other parts of my body which was not covered by the fabric.
The girls must be shocked to see how pale I was,
with my lips being white and nails becoming pale green and purplish.
(I wonder why is it so sudden because I'm not losing any blood.)
Anyway,
reached home at around 2a.m.
Today.
Woke up at 9.30a.m,
hesitated awhile but get myself up eventually.
Bathed and gave Mork a morning call,
prepared awhile and went to BB's house.
Cabbed down to ECP to meet up with G-man and have MacDonalds for lunch while waiting for Mork and guys,
as well as E. and her friend to arrive.
Instead of roller-blading today,
I cycled because I was feeling kinda feeling lethargic.
Glad that I did the right choice because it was really crowded with lots of people wearing red shirt,
nothing to do with the red shirts,
but with the crowds and reckless cyclist,
I would bound to fall as many times as though it doesn't feel pain at all.
A really-heavy-downpour ended our journey,
and I thought that it was really nice to cycle in the rain to feel the coldness and thrillness.
Ended up with BB cycling out to chase me while Mork is chasing her.
DUH.
Seriously,
I don't feel happy at all after the chasing part.
But it's alright.
IT IS ALL OVER.
Tomorrow is another new day.
(:
To bed.
followed by steamboat with BB, Mork and guys.
Today is a tiring day because was back home late last night and waking up early this morning.
Yesterday.
Met up with BB and E. at their workplace because I ended school earlier than them ending their work,
so travelling by MRT all the way from Bugis till Commonwealth is not a problem.
We then decided to go to Westmall to have our dinner.
The night was spent at a nice place to chill-out locating at somewhere near Jurong-East,
with E.'s ex-boyfriend and her friend.
But the night ended with me nearly fainted in the toilet because of sudden low-blood-pressure which only happens during a 'certain period' of every month.
I wasn't feeling too well all of a sudden,
so I proceeded to the toilet hopefully to get better after breathing in the germs in the toilet.
But I started having serious breaking out of cold sweats which causes my dress to be slightly-wet,
droplets of sweats which tickled down my face,
and visible-tiny-weeny-droplets of sweat/water/whatever appearing on my hands and other parts of my body which was not covered by the fabric.
The girls must be shocked to see how pale I was,
with my lips being white and nails becoming pale green and purplish.
(I wonder why is it so sudden because I'm not losing any blood.)
Anyway,
reached home at around 2a.m.
Today.
Woke up at 9.30a.m,
hesitated awhile but get myself up eventually.
Bathed and gave Mork a morning call,
prepared awhile and went to BB's house.
Cabbed down to ECP to meet up with G-man and have MacDonalds for lunch while waiting for Mork and guys,
as well as E. and her friend to arrive.
Instead of roller-blading today,
I cycled because I was feeling kinda feeling lethargic.
Glad that I did the right choice because it was really crowded with lots of people wearing red shirt,
nothing to do with the red shirts,
but with the crowds and reckless cyclist,
I would bound to fall as many times as though it doesn't feel pain at all.
A really-heavy-downpour ended our journey,
and I thought that it was really nice to cycle in the rain to feel the coldness and thrillness.
Ended up with BB cycling out to chase me while Mork is chasing her.
DUH.
Seriously,
I don't feel happy at all after the chasing part.
But it's alright.
IT IS ALL OVER.
Tomorrow is another new day.
(:
To bed.
08 August 2008
zzZ..
I'm having Computerised-techniques - Introduction to computerised Fahion Design.
One word - BORED.
That explains why am I here.
Morning lesson with ELo is already a torture,
with only about half of the class attending.
So should I conclude that I've got the most boring combination of lessons on Friday?
1-hour more,
BB here I come!
One word - BORED.
That explains why am I here.
Morning lesson with ELo is already a torture,
with only about half of the class attending.
So should I conclude that I've got the most boring combination of lessons on Friday?
1-hour more,
BB here I come!
07 August 2008
..
I'M FEELING SUPER DUPER ULTRA BEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK CHEKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LOVE MY 'FRIENDS'!
Ever wonder how it feels when something you secretly don't wished to happen yet being joked about, happenED?
Heard from BB that some of her colleagues went to Genting last week which includes JHK and that Siao Eh.
One of the night when JHK was sleeping,
'someone' tapped his shoulder.
-.-!
What's even more ridiculous is that he heard 'someone' bathing in the bathroom when there's no one else except he himself and..
Well,
NO ONE IS SURE WHETHER HE IS ALONE IN THE ROOM OR WHAT-SO-EVER.
Anyway,
what's the funniest part is that before they left for the trip,
I told BB that I'll be sending 2 of my 'friends' to play with them during the trip.
So..
One is tapping his shoulder while the other is bathing?
Oh,
WHAT A COINCIDENCE!
But..
I'm afraid to say that this isn't the first time that SUCH COINCIDENCE happened.
Like I always say..
Those whom I love shall be take care of by the 'guardian angels' around me.
Those whom I seriously DISLIKE shall have the taste of .. -grins-
HEY 'MY DEAR',
HOW'S YOUR EYES LATELY?
-smirk-
Heard from BB that some of her colleagues went to Genting last week which includes JHK and that Siao Eh.
One of the night when JHK was sleeping,
'someone' tapped his shoulder.
-.-!
What's even more ridiculous is that he heard 'someone' bathing in the bathroom when there's no one else except he himself and..
Well,
NO ONE IS SURE WHETHER HE IS ALONE IN THE ROOM OR WHAT-SO-EVER.
Anyway,
what's the funniest part is that before they left for the trip,
I told BB that I'll be sending 2 of my 'friends' to play with them during the trip.
So..
One is tapping his shoulder while the other is bathing?
Oh,
WHAT A COINCIDENCE!
But..
I'm afraid to say that this isn't the first time that SUCH COINCIDENCE happened.
Like I always say..
Those whom I love shall be take care of by the 'guardian angels' around me.
Those whom I seriously DISLIKE shall have the taste of .. -grins-
HEY 'MY DEAR',
HOW'S YOUR EYES LATELY?
-smirk-
Nightmare-scars
Process of baking the skin for DURIAN-PUFFS..
TADA~!!!
...You know,
I used to have mosquito-bitten-scars all over my leg when I was younger,
and with the contribution of Eczema,
my whole of both legs looked as though they going to rot forever and be amputated.
But luckily,
with my determination and strong-will,
I managed to tolerate the tormenting-itchiness.
After few YEARS of hardwork,
the distressing-scars disappeared completely.
But..
But..
LOOK!
ALL THESE SCARS ARE GOING TO STAY WITH ME!
Thanks to something I love - roller-blading.
04 August 2008
I LOVE YOU
IF I know that waking up after 1-hour nap and not doing anything,
I would sleep through the night.
Last night when I was about to go to my room after going to the toilet,
I saw 'something' dodged and tried to shun me.
(:
Well,
was being looked upon like a freak when I told my classmates about this.
It's normal for me alright?
YAWNS~
I would sleep through the night.
Last night when I was about to go to my room after going to the toilet,
I saw 'something' dodged and tried to shun me.
(:
Well,
was being looked upon like a freak when I told my classmates about this.
It's normal for me alright?
YAWNS~
Dear BB,
can I give you a nice and BIG hug the next time I see you?
You know that I'm not good in comforting others,
and seeing your tears hurts me too.
Although I sounded gay,
but just wanna tell you..
I AM ALWAYS AROUND.
难道就没别的选择吗？
两个人相爱，
为何要分离？
两个人相爱，
为何不能一起度过难关？
两个人相爱，
为何要选择让对方和自己受伤？
如果不需要分离也能够度过难关，
为何要选择让对方和自己受伤呢？
有些东西失去后就无法再挽回。。
如果没有尽全力挽留，
就会有无尽的遗憾。。
为何要分离？
两个人相爱，
为何不能一起度过难关？
两个人相爱，
为何要选择让对方和自己受伤？
如果不需要分离也能够度过难关，
为何要选择让对方和自己受伤呢？
有些东西失去后就无法再挽回。。
如果没有尽全力挽留，
就会有无尽的遗憾。。
Just passing time..
The pink-pig belongs to Eileen and I always tell her,'Eh, the pig wants to talk to you.'
Then I'll be moving the pig a little indicating it trying to 'talk'.
LOL
Today during the first lesson in school,
Eileen told me,
'The pig wants to eat sweet.'
..
Third-day after the fall. (:
03 August 2008
roller rolLER ROLLER! blade blADE BLADE!
Roller-blading with BB, Mork and guys is a basic weekly-routine for me,
and so,
we went roller-blading yesterday like any other Saturday.
It's a 4-hours non-stop exercise for me and I like it!
The previous post showed the injuries I got despite SS reminding me to take care of myself by not FLYING into the grassy area.
Yes,
I did not fly into the grass,
but instead I left a patch of my skin on the pathway at East Coast Park(ECP).
It's alright to fall because I'll stand up again and make sure the next time I'll be able to counter the fall.
It ain't a BIG thing to fall right?
(:
Know what?
I used to think that ECP is a place full of memories which will only bring tears of sadness to my eyes,
but now,
it's a totally different thing.
ECP WILL BE a place for me to grow stronger and happier!
It is the third day of Lunar-calendar for the 7th month.
By right,
I'll feel chilly and uncomfortable whenever the sky turns dark.
But by left for this year,
I felt exceptionally relieve and safe within myself,
and I wonder why.
Perhaps after few attempts of brushing across these ghostly experiences,
I'd already got used to it.
-Shrug-
Third-week of school term is coming soon,
and it's like TOMORROW WILL BE THE THIRD-WEEK OF SCHOOL TERM.
Well,
all I can hope for is that I'll be able to pull-up-my-socks and start moving.
加油！加油！
BB和Daifei, 你们也要加油。。
and so,
we went roller-blading yesterday like any other Saturday.
It's a 4-hours non-stop exercise for me and I like it!
The previous post showed the injuries I got despite SS reminding me to take care of myself by not FLYING into the grassy area.
Yes,
I did not fly into the grass,
but instead I left a patch of my skin on the pathway at East Coast Park(ECP).
It's alright to fall because I'll stand up again and make sure the next time I'll be able to counter the fall.
It ain't a BIG thing to fall right?
(:
Know what?
I used to think that ECP is a place full of memories which will only bring tears of sadness to my eyes,
but now,
it's a totally different thing.
ECP WILL BE a place for me to grow stronger and happier!
It is the third day of Lunar-calendar for the 7th month.
By right,
I'll feel chilly and uncomfortable whenever the sky turns dark.
But by left for this year,
I felt exceptionally relieve and safe within myself,
and I wonder why.
Perhaps after few attempts of brushing across these ghostly experiences,
I'd already got used to it.
-Shrug-
Third-week of school term is coming soon,
and it's like TOMORROW WILL BE THE THIRD-WEEK OF SCHOOL TERM.
Well,
all I can hope for is that I'll be able to pull-up-my-socks and start moving.
加油！加油！
BB和Daifei, 你们也要加油。。
Pain
The above are actually injuries I received from yesterday's roller-blading session.I also suffered from bruises at my chest area as well as around the hip area,
after trying to avoid crashing into a small child and his bicycle.
(:
02 August 2008
Anticipating!!
I guessed BB is still snoring away on her bed,
but nevermind about that.
I'm already wide awake,
anticipating the fun we gonna have later.
Yeah!!
but nevermind about that.
I'm already wide awake,
anticipating the fun we gonna have later.
Yeah!!
01 August 2008
SMILE TILL BIG BIG
It's the last day of school-week-2,
and I'm happy that workload given still can be coped.
Roller-blade for at least once or twice per week,
getting healthier anD HEALTHIER!
Hope you'll be happy and free from troubles just like me.
I love my BB and Daifei.
and I'm happy that workload given still can be coped.
Roller-blade for at least once or twice per week,
getting healthier anD HEALTHIER!
Hope you'll be happy and free from troubles just like me.
I love my BB and Daifei.
夜深人静。。
睡不着。。
看见许多的不理解，
和看见许多的不谅解。
看见许多的烦恼，
和看见需的懊恼。
看见许多的伤心，
和看见许多的想不通。
希望你能为自己而活，
希望你能为爱你的人而活。
祈祷着。。
希望我身边的守护神都能帮助你。。
祈祷着。。
希望我能快点入眠，
因为我不想变大熊猫。
在夜深人静时，
心里出现的人就是你最爱得那个。。
你心里的人是谁呢？
看见许多的不理解，
和看见许多的不谅解。
看见许多的烦恼，
和看见需的懊恼。
看见许多的伤心，
和看见许多的想不通。
希望你能为自己而活，
希望你能为爱你的人而活。
祈祷着。。
希望我身边的守护神都能帮助你。。
祈祷着。。
希望我能快点入眠，
因为我不想变大熊猫。
在夜深人静时，
心里出现的人就是你最爱得那个。。
你心里的人是谁呢？
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