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many heartaches which cant be pen down, it is even harder to express with words.

:'(

what's wrong?

love baby

will be away for 2-days and 1-night for a short stay at marina bay sands hotel.

i'm missing baby soooooooooooooooo much that i wished that i'll be able to bring him along, everywhere and anywhere. we met up everyday even though he's no longer working so close to my work place, but everytime when one has to leave for a day or two, we'll be missing each other like as though we'll be apart for really very long. we just bid each other good bye 3-hours ago and less than an hour, we're missing each other's accompany. =( well, just hope that friday will come faster so that i'll be having baby all by myself for the whole day.

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well, baby told me about she contacting him and checking out some stuffs. hmm. not really bothered by it because i trust my baby. we are just each other's property.

love you always..

many photos to upload, many things to update, but very lazy to do so.

for now,

i love baby so so much.

reap what you sow

3/11

assessment day. was kinda excited, tired, not really scared, but just a mixture of feelings. didnt slept a wink the night before.. or perhaps didnt rest much for the whole of last week will assessment. well, went to school in the afternoon to print some of the stuffs before the assessment. got really worried before my turn. however, it was unexpectedly relaxed throughout the whole presentation though i was kinda tensed. got really yippie after the whole thing.. and met up with R and O for dinner and movie instead of the class outing.

4/11

woke up early in the morning despite the sleeping late the night before. went over to fetch grandma and then visit another relative with both grandma and mom. i was really tired due to the lacked of rest and nearly dozed off at my relative's house. had brunch, then home. slept at 8pm+ all the way the next day's 10am+..

5/11

met up with baby for lunch because he said that it's worth a celebration as i endured through the 4-months and finally it's holiday time! spent the whole day with him and met up with J for 3-hours before reaching home at 12am+.

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it's kinda funny when you forgive and accept your friends' flaws, whereas you wanna revenge on your relatives. unless you really have what it takes to do it, if not, dont make a fool out of yourself by overestimating your capability, wisdom, and courage. if what you can do is only to spike us, FORGET ABOUT IT. talk about wisdom, we are all above you. capability, you're nothing. courage, you have it, but not as much as us - the lunatics. YOU SHOULD KNOW IT, right? seriously, it's none of your business anyway. you wanna get close with them because you want revenge against them, or perhaps HIM. at the same time, you fell into your own trap by listening to one-sided story, in the end, you became the weapon of HER'S. EVERY LITTLE FLING, I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE UP TO. tell me that it's all my assumption. you yourself know it best.
IF YOU HAVE THE GUTS, COME STRAIGHT AT US.
DONT DO SMALL LITTLE ACTIONS BEHIND AND ACT IT BIG.
IT'S USELESS, SERIOUSLY.
(this is not a reaction from me about what you did, this is just a warning to you before it's too late.
you yourself know who am i talking to, just dont want you to carry on with your stupidity and please do what you deem fit.)