^^

work! woRK! WORK!

endure! endURE! ENDURE!

Just one more week, ya?

Any holiday part-time job for me? (:

Please stay cheerful always..

Long ago, it was said that this day was a day used by the ancient to take stock of supplies and slaughter of livestock for winter stores. It is believed that on October 31st, the boundary between the alive and the deceased dissolved, and the dead become dangerous for the living by causing problems such as sickness or damaged crops.

Long ago.. it was said that this day, I should be part of Zouk or wherever that allowed me to scare the shit outta others.
-Shrug-
(:

Not to forget, happy birthday! to dear cousin JH and my classmate LY.

Cheers~

.. Yes, I will.

=D

Met up with R and SS few days ago for a short spin and small talk. Well, all I can say is that both of them never fail to make me laugh because of how R 'bully' SS. HAHA!

Good news follow..

One more week.. Just another one more week and I'll be done with the assignments on-hand. I think by then I'll have holidays! Planned to go Desaru during mid-November. What a great get-away! - period.

Felt so bad to disturb C early in the morning because I got the need to use Photoshop for my schoolwork and she didn't reject my request despite being tired, except texting me as early as 4a.m., asking me to be at her place later. Thanks Cassie!

Happy Deepavali!

In the morning, I received a message.

''Hey.. Happy MANGALA Day.. Haha..''

Seriously I find it kinda hilarious although it sounded a bit of being racist, but maybe it's my FIRST time seeing this kinda message appearing in my handphone.

Well.. Happy Deepavali!

I SERIOUSLY think that the other Miss Gan in my class should go down to somewhere around Mustafa Centre to have a look, it'll somehow help in her topic I guess. (:

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Saw a meaningful message somewhere..

''There was a man who saw a bee floundering around in the water. He decided to save it by stretching out his finger but the bee stung him. The man still tried to get the bee out of the water but the bee stung him again. Another man nearby told him to stop. But he said,
''It is in the nature of bees to sting. It is in my nature to care. Why should I give up?''

Lesson learnt:

Don’t give up caring. Don’t give up doing good. Don’t give up loving. Even if people around you sting! Sure you will feel hurt but the good thing is you have done your part. You will never know what is good if you don’t know what is evil. You will never learn how to be kind if everyone else is kind. And you will never appreciate the importance of love if you did not experience pain and sacrifice.

(: Well.. Well..

Omedeto Gozaimasu~

To add on to the previous entry..

CONGRATULATIONS TO ME!!

Why?

Because I'm not debarred despite low attendance rate.

=p

My life; my choice; my path

It's been a while since I last went to look for my 'old friend' at a pub that I used to go, and because of that, I went there last night to get myself wasted. Not much changes to the place, except that the lady boss of the place actually hired a group of guys to entertain those ladies. Most of them are macho and good-looking, and that explains why they're so well-like by those LAO CAI.

Well, my new life is good, I guess it's really the lifestyle that suits me. No more consecutive late-nights-out and no more over-spending, that's the main thing that changed. I still live by my principles, spending how much I'm supposed to, living a normal and peaceful life rather than those luxurious life whereby good car, good food and good drink were involved. At least I know where I'm standing for now, even if I'm at the bottom of the pyramid, it doesn't really matters. Who knows where I'll be 5-years down the road? Maybe.. the top? The second? Or perhaps I still remain at where I am right now? Haha.. But no matter what, at least I'm earning my own living. Compared to those who live a meaningless life by waiting for someone to 'repay' their 'over-time service' in order to survive(sorry, I know I'm being crude here if you know what I'm trying to say, but it's just the facts), somehow I think I'm far more better.

Yes, a step back really indeed shows a clearer blue sky. (:

When I convert all the sadness into strength that pulls me together,
I know I'm going to be stronger.
You know I'll be stronger too, right?
Yes, I will.

Once bitten, twice shy.

Today Wifey told me something..

'When someone you know for so long don't trust you for what you're doing, it's never a lost to leave. Don't worry, I won't be the next person to break your heart.'

All I did was to smile..

Twice bitten, thrice shy.

But still, I'll be thankful.

L.O.L.

Just finished preparing dinner for family while Mum and Brother are still not home and while Dad is still sleeping because of working over-time last night. Know what? Every time when I got the chance to prepare meal(s) for my family members, it's really blissful. Now I understand how Mum used to feel when all she did is for her family, us. It's not as though she no longer cooks or do the housework, but just that she's not a 24/7 housewife now. (:

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Damn! I hurt my wrist again. This time round it's not my left hand, unluckily, it's my right. I really need to get a policy for my hand. L.O.L.!

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Suddenly I think of what my B.F. and I used to say during school-times..
MOJO~
Remember?

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Too bad, I won't feel jealous like you do, dumbsh*t. (:

Oh God..

Can't believe that I'm capable of doing such stuffs.. Can't help but feeling a little.. disgusted.

A piece of good news to share with no one

Dentist said.. By the end of the year if nothing goes wrong, I'll be able to remove my braces which have been around for around 2-years! By then, for every photo I take, I'll SMILE TILL BIG BIG to show off my straightened teeth. :D

'O'~

I'm still in school at this hour..
Yawns~~~
It's a good way to keep my mind occupied rather than to think of those unneccessary stuffs right?
(:

(:

'Seriously, I think it's time for me to let go..' I said to him.

'Is that really what you want and what you think?' He replied.

Conscience

Telling a lie for the sake of your own advantage, which in turn spoil the reputation of another person which you don't even know.
Hmm..
Karma awaits.

当我以为我已失去一切的那一天。。

周遭下起了雪。。
心顿时停了。。




















I will be back again.

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Care? Love? Concern? Protect? Independent? Freedom? Privacy? Disappointed? Friends? Nasty? Appreciation? Cherish? Escape? Worried? Lover? Heartaches? Capability? Promise? Right? Wrong? Fun? Cheated? Responsibility? Accepting?

How does it feels to be disappointed?
What is the real disappointment?
..
Being disappointed is when something BAD was done by someone whom you trusted dearly, right?

Know what is the real disappointment?
It's when someone who treated you dearly, tried to give you the love and care and concern as much as possible; tried to protect you as much as possible; love you more than loving himself/herself, ended up being a disappointment to the latter.

For the one who is disappointed in me..
Perhaps you already forgot what you told me that very day before hanging the phone, but I still remembers it clearly. You told me that you won't be going with the guys, but the next moment you went out with them. The next day I sarcastically joked about it and I knew that you're unhappy and don't understand why am I reacting in the way I reacted. What I NEVER know is that the concern I had for you, wanting you to be more responsible for your own words and doings, could be something seen as restricting your freedom and interfering your privacy.
Is this the way you learnt to be independent?
When the people around you are worried about you, did you ever think of the reason(s)?
If there are no one concerning you, how would you feel?
You dislike people to assume, but are you doing things that allowed them to do so?
You hate people to tell you something indirectly, but can you accept if people points at you directly?
When those around you are thinking of ways to prevent you from getting hurt, what you did was to hurt them in return. Think about the woman who cooks for you, wanting you to eat properly and be healthy. Think about the woman who nags at you for spending too much, hoping that you'll save some for the future or perhaps just the rainy days. Think about the woman who rushed to the hospital just to make sure you're doing fine, and then rush back to work, and all this rushing here and there is nothing as long as you're fine. Think about the woman who definitely cries herself to sleep when she got so worried about her own daughter and yet can't do anything. Think about your Mother. Think about how you criticised the taste of the food when she cooked something she likes once in a full-moon and whereas the rest of the month she's cooking food to your likings. Think of how you shrug her off when she told you not to go out as often because most of the time there'll be extra expenses. Think of how both of you screamed at each other when she came back home after playing mahjong while you're sick at home, it's not her fault for you being sick. THINK, did you ever say Thank You to show your appreciation for her, or perhaps just a way to show that you love her. Think of the reason why she cries herself to bed.
It's all about YOU.
For someone you barely know for a year and know nuts about, compared to a woman who is always looking upon you with out-stretching arms, always hoping and waiting for the day that you'll return to her arms, always be ready to protect you from any harm and danger.
Why is it that this is the reason that you hurt your Mother?
Is this what you claimed that you learnt for the past-years?
Like what mentioned above, you dislike people's assumption. Did you ever think of what you did? Is it a MUST for you to see someone you barely know for a year and got nothing to do with you as frequent as 6-7 days per week? When you told me that there's nothing between you two, I listened. When you told me that there're times when he actually sent you up to your place, I listened. What I told you was, if there's really nothing in between the both of you, then minimise the chances of being alone with him. In the end? Not only sending you home, you ALLOWED him to fetch you to the destination. Not only sending you home and fetching you to destination(s), you even went out with him alone. Isn't it inviting people to have the chance to say stuffs that you dislike to hear? By all means, say that you don't care, don't bother either. But the fact is, you care, you bother.
Yes, you can insist that you're right this time and people like me blames you wrongly. What I'm capable of saying is what others are capable of thinking and saying and if you're really so firm about what you did is/are right, it'll be firm enough to shut off people's mouth. I rather that you hate me for telling you how powerful can gossips be, than to let you experience it yourself from others because you yourself should know how much you dislike all this. I rather that you're disappointed in me for saying things to someone you wished I didn't, than to see you having the possibilities of getting hurt, harm or cheated.
You heard something nasty from me that night(which I supposed that you only heard part of it and not knowing the whole story), but what you don't know is that I can be much more nastier than you can think of in order to protect my love ones(for your information, one of your colleagues(which I think you and I should know who she is) actually call him and asked about your stuffs and tried to be really kind - now you know the whole story, right?). But don't worry, from today onwards, I DO AS I SAY, you don't have to see me being nasty anymore, you don't have to fred over someone like me to restrict your freedom or interfering your privacy. Most importantly, you don't have to feel disappointed anymore..you don't have to worry about managing 2 different groups of people anymore..

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It's a wound,
A deep one..
Before I know,
It's bleeding profusely..
Don't ask others to take care of me when you're so firm about yourself,
treat it as my punishment..
I'm in no position to say anything because like what you said,
nobody knows how you treat him and you don't have to further explain it..
I know I know..
Sorry to interfere your life and got too over-worried..
You're right..
The only wrong thing ever is caring, loving and concerning too much..
Thank you for showing me to the truth..