of course partly because of baby's absence, but mainly because there's nothing for me to aim for. like example, if i'm allowed to go overseas with my friends, at least i'll be aiming to earn and save enough money. i'm so restricted to the extend that sometimes i just feel like going to get myself another passport and get myself outta this place - for long. mom always says that if i have all the freedom, it means that i'm no longer a person related to her. what kinda logic is this? during school days, i'll just be studying in school, go home to do assignments, worried about money and stuffs. at work, i'll have to face all sorta customers and deal with brainless colleagues. it's always the same routine, facing almost the same people. i find life kinda meaningless.. nothing to look forward to, anymore. and lately, my appetite became smaller than before. food dont taste as good anymore too. i get bored with games very fast, unlike last time when i'll be really glued to the computer.
what's happening?
